Posted by: susanideus | April 21, 2011

Thursday Thoughts

Accept the pain, cherish the joys, resolve the regrets; then can come the best of benedictions: ‘If I had my life to live over, I’d do it all the same.’  ~Joan McIntosh

A good friend asked me how I was doing on working my way out of the “funk” I wrote about in my last post. Slowly, my friend, but with more hope than I’ve had in a while.

I don’t know that I’ve come to a point of total acceptance about all that’s happened recently. In that most of it is in the past and cannot be changed, there is a sort of acceptance that is inevitable, right? Maybe it’s more the regret that needs to be addressed.

I’ve long believed that everything happens for a reason, even if we don’t always know the reason. Despite my belief, it’s a difficult concept for a recovering control freak like myself. I always want the whys AND the solutions. I’m a fixer.

Still, I am getting to the place where I know that holding on to the past, keeping a tight hold on regrets, and trying to maintain absolute control have not worked and that said practices are not healthy. It’s a process but I’m learning.

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us. ~Joseph Campbell

I don’t know what lies ahead. I do know that my whole life up until now has brought me to this place. Each twist and turn, each joy and heartache, each dream and yes, each failure–all are threads that make up the tapestry of my life. It won’t look like anyone else’s tapestry. It may not look like anything I envisioned long ago. Still, it is mine and it’s unique, as am I.

Destiny itself is like a wonderful wide tapestry in which every thread is guided by an unspeakably tender hand, placed beside another thread and held and carried by a hundred others. ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

I have good friends and loving family who go with me on this journey we call life and a God who has “an unspeakably tender hand”. Not a bad place to start out from. I know, despite everything, that I am blessed.



  1. I am trying to lead an authentic life – but I have so much trouble letting go of my regrets. Your writing motivates and encourages me, and I know that the path you tread, while difficult, is a worthwhile one, and hope that I can glean some understanding and appreciation of my own parallel path! 🙂

    • Thanks, Lo! Authenticity is tough, and figuring it out is part of my journey right now. Thought I’d have it all figured out by now.

      • AH! You have hit the nail on the head – I thought as we entered the retirement years we would have it all figured out! YYSSW! My favorite quote is from John Lennon – “Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans…” Oh yeah. sigh.

      • So, you haven’t figured it out either? I used to think that was another failure. I see so many people who seem to have it all together since early on and they never seem to waver. Now I know that God just isn’t finished with me yet…

  2. “Each twist and turn, each joy and heartache, each dream and yes, each failure–all are threads that make up the tapestry of my life. It won’t look like anyone else’s tapestry.”

    Nice image–life as a tapestry. Your attitude is inspiring–I know how hard it is to feel positive when things aren’t going well. Maybe that’s our opportunity to make something really beautiful.

    • Thanks for your kind words, Kathy. I’m taking it a day at a time, doing some inspirational reading, and trying to write some every day. It is an opportunity, and I’m trying to make it count for something.

  3. Ah, my dear friend, Sid. I liked your last post about Banning the Funk and I also know that sometimes it is easier said than done. Praying for you and yours that this season will pass and that the clouds will lift soon. Blessings, Linda.

    • Yours words and your prayers mean more than I can say. Thank you, Linda. Friends like you will make the “getting through” much easier. ((hug))

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