Accept the pain, cherish the joys, resolve the regrets; then can come the best of benedictions: ‘If I had my life to live over, I’d do it all the same.’ ~Joan McIntosh
A good friend asked me how I was doing on working my way out of the “funk” I wrote about in my last post. Slowly, my friend, but with more hope than I’ve had in a while.
I don’t know that I’ve come to a point of total acceptance about all that’s happened recently. In that most of it is in the past and cannot be changed, there is a sort of acceptance that is inevitable, right? Maybe it’s more the regret that needs to be addressed.
I’ve long believed that everything happens for a reason, even if we don’t always know the reason. Despite my belief, it’s a difficult concept for a recovering control freak like myself. I always want the whys AND the solutions. I’m a fixer.
Still, I am getting to the place where I know that holding on to the past, keeping a tight hold on regrets, and trying to maintain absolute control have not worked and that said practices are not healthy. It’s a process but I’m learning.
We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us. ~Joseph Campbell
I don’t know what lies ahead. I do know that my whole life up until now has brought me to this place. Each twist and turn, each joy and heartache, each dream and yes, each failure–all are threads that make up the tapestry of my life. It won’t look like anyone else’s tapestry. It may not look like anything I envisioned long ago. Still, it is mine and it’s unique, as am I.
Destiny itself is like a wonderful wide tapestry in which every thread is guided by an unspeakably tender hand, placed beside another thread and held and carried by a hundred others. ~ Rainer Maria Rilke
I have good friends and loving family who go with me on this journey we call life and a God who has “an unspeakably tender hand”. Not a bad place to start out from. I know, despite everything, that I am blessed.